"Nothing will ruin your 20’s more than thinking you should have your life together already."
I’ll read it over again, the lines of the note you left. I keep hoping that I’ll forget that the words changed while I slept, but I have my doubts. [x]
"You are personally responsible for becoming more ethical than the society you grew up in."
Do you ever think about all of the really nice drunk girls you’ve met in bathrooms and wonder how they are doing? I miss you all
"You’ve become so damaged that when someone tries to give you what you deserve, you have no fucking idea how to respond."
"and I know I speak like my heart was broken last night
even though it happened last January,
when I thought I was numb from the cold
but I was numb from you
and sometimes everything you left behind cuts into
my tongue and I find myself choking up your name
even though it’s been 3 months since you’ve called
and I’m not sure how your voice still plays in my head
when I can’t even remember how it sounds
and there are scars and bruises all over me that I
could’ve sworn had faded but everyone looks at me
like I’m about to collapse
and sometimes I kiss boys who grab me like they
want to break me and I let them because there’s
nothing left to break
and sometimes they taste like you
and I used to smile like I wasn’t empty
but you’re stuck in my head
and in my heart
and underneath my fingernails
and I’m so sorry but you can’t stay here"
I’m a collection of unsaid goodbyes and thrown up 3 AM “I miss you’s” (via extrasad)
This isn’t about anyone specific but I love it.